My law of God if I let him down again !!

I love you .. Dear to you is so sincere, I strongly maintain this relationship to remain durable. I'm serious this relationship as you live because I do not want a relationship that just wants to play alone and not serious. For me the relationship that just wants to play it useless, and just wasting our time alone .. Yes, I am having this same relationship you because I love and admiration to you. But on the other hand do not you know I do not want to hurt you. But this was my fault, I'm hurting you and disappoint you, until you angry with me .. I'm sorry, this is all because of my nature. anyway my carelessness. and now my relationship with him is not clear, said the end was near. And I do not want that to happen the Lord .. I just want to have it alone, let me be with him again the Lord :( Not the door of his heart God yaa .. I promise not to disappoint him again for the second time .. Take my word of God, if I let her down again, I sincerely miss him forever :'(